Tuesday, March 03, 2009

I need to vent, and my blog listens!

Well, here I am in tears. I am planning my wedding for September 26. The biggest day of my life. And yes to everyone else it's just another day. They'll show up to a party have some fun dancing etc, and go home. I told Matt tonight, that I don't want to get married anymore, I don't want to go to my own wedding!! I am so stressed out about all the little details of wedding planning and all the stupid little knitpicky things that need to be done and I just want to scream. Don't get me wrong, I love Matt to death and want to spend my life with him, but it's this anticipation of the most stressful day of my life. And when it comes down to it, who's going to notice if something isn't right, or it's the wrong color etc? I can't wait until the day after my wedding, when I can just sleep in and not have a care in the world. That will be the best feeling in the world. But until then, I warned Matt, I am going to be a bitch. And I can't help it, I have people calling me to ask me this and that. I always tell Matt, we are two nice people, we do nice things for everyone else, and we don't get anything back. Matt is way to nice, he lets people walk all over him, because he is so nice. I am the same way. I don't know what it is about me. I will do anything for anyone, and I never get anything back in return. Yah, I have my health and love, but a good honest deed someone has done for me? It's been awhile. I get burnt every time.


Becky Jamison said...

Lisa, you are nice and Matt's nice and you'll be blessed for being good people. The blessings don't always come when or where or from whom we think they should. But good things will come your way. If I could give one bit of advice, I'd say keep things in perspective. Don't blow any of this out of porportion. This is a very big day in your life, but it's just one day. You'll have many more wonderful times in your marriage. What I'm saying is "Don't let 6 months of days be ruined just trying to make one day perfect". The day won't be perfect, but your love for Matt and his love for you will! The rest really doesn't matter all that much in the eternities. Keep things in perspective. We love you and pray for your happiness and peace and calm. Things will turn out just right and will be okay.

Ruthie said...

awwww I'm sorry to hear that your having a hard time. planning big things are very stressful and lisa if you need any help I'll be there. granted I'm far away but you could even call and vent to me and I'll be there for you. Hang in there, remember in the end this is all about you and matt. Thats what matters the most