Well, here I am in tears. I am planning my wedding for September 26. The biggest day of my life. And yes to everyone else it's just another day. They'll show up to a party have some fun dancing etc, and go home. I told Matt tonight, that I don't want to get married anymore, I don't want to go to my own wedding!! I am so stressed out about all the little details of wedding planning and all the stupid little knitpicky things that need to be done and I just want to scream. Don't get me wrong, I love Matt to death and want to spend my life with him, but it's this anticipation of the most stressful day of my life. And when it comes down to it, who's going to notice if something isn't right, or it's the wrong color etc? I can't wait until the day after my wedding, when I can just sleep in and not have a care in the world. That will be the best feeling in the world. But until then, I warned Matt, I am going to be a bitch. And I can't help it, I have people calling me to ask me this and that. I always tell Matt, we are two nice people, we do nice things for everyone else, and we don't get anything back. Matt is way to nice, he lets people walk all over him, because he is so nice. I am the same way. I don't know what it is about me. I will do anything for anyone, and I never get anything back in return. Yah, I have my health and love, but a good honest deed someone has done for me? It's been awhile. I get burnt every time.
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