I hadn't written in awhile, so I wanted to wish you a Happy Halloween! Matt and I are throwing a little party to celebrate one of the best holidays of the year. We are excited cause we are going all out with our little costume party. Everything we did as kids, we are doing at the party!! S'mores, costumes, fog machines, music, candy etc etc. Should be fun!!
Yesterday was such a gorgeous day. It was a lazy Sunday morning and we didn't know what to do. So Matt decided we should go to the cemetary for an early Halloween chill. Morbid I know but we were really in search of Peter Mortenson. The orginal owner of house back in 1902. We anxiously drove around looking for section T234. We parked and started walking up and down the rows of the section he was in, then all the sudden Matt called over to me "Moretenson!! I found it!" I ran up to the headstone, an erie silence grew between me and Matt. It was almost like we were both in shock that this was really real. We had read so much about Peter and his wife Hannah. And there they were beneath our feet, all that was left of them was a couple names carved in a piece of granite.
We got to talking about how nobody has probably come to visit this stone in some time. When was the last time someone placed flowers on this grave? I took some seeds from a hollyhock that was growing on headstone nearby and planted them next to the stone. The chance of regrowth for someone that may or may not be forgotton.
It's amazing to think theres 70 years between 1938 (when Peter passed) and now. So much has probably changed or maybe nothing has changed at all. They lived in our house in 1929 during the great depression and Matt and I are living in a similar economic time in the same house. How many laughs and tears were shared in this house, kisses and hugs? They had a family in this house, they had grandbabies in this house. How much love could fill the walls of our little home.
It got me thinking, does Peter ever come back to check on his house? Like an unexpected landlord....
Yesterday I met one my best friends, Adriane, up in Denver. She is going to be one of the bridesmaids in my wedding. So while we were up there we thought we would go check out bridesmaid dresses at David's Bridal. We had so much fun, we found a dress we both liked. And she looked great in it. You can see a picture of the dress below. It will also be this color. It's called "Lapis" it was beautiful!
After that we looked at a few wedding dresses for me, I found one that was $1100 but I knew my dad wouldn't go for that one! Hehe. But I am sure I will find a dress I can't live without soon. (I will not be posting pics of that when I find it though, it's going to be a surprise hehe!)
Needless to say it was good to catch up with Adriane. I hadn't seen her in awhile and it was nice to discuss wedding etc with someone and have them be so excited about everything. Also felt great to cross that off my huge to do list!
So about 2 weeks ago, Matt and I went to Michaels and bought a bunch of flowers and some foam to make the bouquets for the bridesmaids. I had this vison in my head but when I started sticking flowers into the foam I relized how hard this all was going to be. So needless to say the night ended in tears and a piece of foam that was so used and abused it couldn't even hold flowers in it anymore.
I went again the other night and bought some more foam, flowers etc. And sat down with the bouquets and I made 3 bouquets that turned out absolutly beautiful I couldn't believe that I had made them. Here's a sneak peek!
They are not done in this picture, but this is the 3 bouquets. I still have to make mine but I am so happy that I made my own flowers for my wedding. The theme is fall colors, sunflowers etc.
So today Matt and I went to the Colorado Springs Air Show. What an amazing adventure we had. I'd never been to an air show before. They had some stunt planes, gliders, and they had F-18 jets.
It was so amazing to see the jet fly by us and you could feel the heat from the engines, it was so loud!! Then he went around behind us and came around sideways over us. I felt like I was in the movie "Top Gun!" What an amazing time we had.
So this morning on my way to work, I saw this little miniture pincher that lives down the street from me. He's always getting out cause he slips through the hole between the gate and the fence at his house. Anyways, so this morning he was trying to get back into the fence, but he couldn't make it. He was holding a roll of hamburger meat in his mouth and couldn't fit through. He must have found it in the trash while was out for his morning adventure. I almost died laughing. His little friend on the other side of the fence was like "C'mon Dude!!" That little hamburgler puppy was a good way to start the day.
So today it happened, I actually ran around the track 2 times!! 2 times!! My goal is to loose 50lbs before my wedding day. 50lbs ago is what I was when I met Matt. It's amazing how fast it sneaks up on you. But I was proud of myself today. I made Matt drive me down to the high school track and I did it. It's funny because everyday I lay on the couch watching TV after work and I think to myself that I need to get up and do something to loose weight. I expect the weight to come off just by eating good and not working out. You'd think my wedding would be motivation enough, it's only the biggest day of my life. Maybe today was day one of many more motivating days. I will keep you up to date on my progress.
So I was driving home from work today, listening to Jewel. Her lyrics are so beautiful. It got me thinking about how I'm going to feel walking down the isle and seeing Matt at the end. I knew the day I met Matt that he would be the one I would spend my life with. I dont know why it took us 8 years to finally take this step in our life. So I tried to imagine my emotions, how I would feel when I am saying my vows and looking in Matt's eyes knowing everything would be ok. And I cried. I cried cause I knew Matt would be there to take care of me for the rest of my life. I cried cause I knew he was the one I was meant to be with. The person my soul was made for. It was a refreshing cry, the good kind.
It took my breathe away thinking of Matt, would he tear up, would he cry? Does he think about this "wedding" as much as I do? He's such a beautiful person, he's always looking to help someone, or be there. I know he's going to be a great father to our children, and grandchildren. Those days will come quickly and I will be wishing for days like today where I am anxious of the future. Wondering how it will all turn out..