To Be A Jamison

So last night I was surfing the net, and I had read several times about a web page that my soon to be mother in law, Becky, goes to a lot called FindAGrave.com. You can type in a name and it tells you birth, death, burial location etc. So I typed in Matt's Grandpa, Lafayette Jamison. So it pulled up all his information, there was a picture of the tombstone where he is buried with his wife Irene, and some pictures of them together.

But when I hear the name Lafayette Jamison, so many good things come to mind. I swear there is not a day that goes by Matt doesn't mention something about him..What an honorable man Lafayette was. Or as Matt calls him, Pappap. I never had the honor of meeting Pappap, but I wish everyday that I could have. Matt talks about Pappap's days in war, flying his B-17 "Little Gizmo" over Germany in World War 2, and dropping paratroopers. Be flew 25 (I think) missions without a scratch. Matt takes me to Dairy Queen for ice cream all the time, and he always stops to say, "Pappap used to take me here." Matt laughs when he tells me the story about Pappap twiddling Wrigley's wrappers into nails and making smiley faces in his ice cream cones. We drive by the house they used to live and Matt is rushed with a million more memories. It's sad to think of how close Matt is to his Grandpa and now that he has passed away all Matt has left to share with me is memories. I know how bad Matt wishes I could have met Pappap. What awesome Grandparents Matt had. No wonder Matt is the person he is today, he had such amazing Grandparents and even more amazing parents.

I was never really close to my grandparents and now that they are gone, I wish more and more I could have known more about them. I remember at their funeral I learned more about them then I had in the 20 years I was alive. To hear Matt speak of his Pappap makes me urn for that connection with my grandparents. So when we visit Pappap's grave, I morn for him. Then I feel this warm calming feeling, like I can morn for my grandparents from there. Since my grandparents are buried in Nebraska and Arizona, I can make my connection through Pappap.

So I feel even though Pappap is not here, I have this feeling that I need to earn the name Jamison. Soon I will be Lisa Jamison, my children will be direct descendants of Lafayette Richard Jamison. I know Matt will be telling our children stories of their Great Grandpa day after day. I thank you Matt for telling me the things you do, and I know our children will too. Matt you should be so proud to have Pappap as your Grandpa. And to be a Jamison, would be livin' life High on the Hog!!

Worry Wart...

So I've noticed as I get older the more things I think of to worry about. I find myself worrying about things completely out of my control. Today I was talking to my mom about my new weight watchers diet. She had done it in the past and had lost 12lbs, which is awesome. She then started to tell me about the blood test she had just had done, and how it came back as 120 for her gloclosamen levels. They say 130 would be the onset of adult diabeties. So it got me thinking, my mom is not overweight or obese. I think she looks great, and she still does all the things she wants to do. She tries so hard to loose weight just like me, she's done all the fad diets and it never budges the scale. Got me worrying about my mom. She's such a great person, everything she has ever done and still does for me. She's my best friend. I look up to her so much and only wish I could be half the woman she is.

My little brother has been struggling with diabeties since he was about 12 years old. He has to prick his finger everyday, test his blood and do shots in his stomach. He's had a couple of close calls, he drove his car off the road one time when his levels got too low and he blacked out. He tries so hard to keep up with his diabeties, but I know he's probably sick of having diabeties. Sometimes I wonder why I was so lucky to not have gotten it and he did? He didn't deserve to get it, he was still a child. But I guess you have to deal with what you've been given. Below is a picture of me and my little brother Jason, making cookies on the counter. Look at how much flour is on Jason's jeans...haha :)

A Kick In The Behind

So today at work I was surfing the internet (I had nothing else to do I promise) So anyways, why does it seem that every add or popup has something to do with loosing weight? Then I got to thinking that my weight and loosing weight is on my mind about 95% of my day. How sick is that? Why should I waste time worring about such a thing when there are so many other things in life to smile or be happy about. So I've been debating joining weight watchers. I had heard alot of good things about it, and my friend is doing it and has lost 25lbs. They make it simple I guess, by allowing you to eat what you want and still loose weight.

So I joined the online weight watchers. I'm not ready to go to the real life meetings where they weigh you in front of everyone there. I will just track my progress online. So I was surfing around in there, it's really awesome. I tracked all my food for the day, they do the point system. And I knew I was eatting pretty good, and according to the point system, I am doing pretty good.

So then I had to pick a workout plan. I picked the Buff Bride-To-Be!! Cute huh? So today is day one. And I know in past posts I have said this would be the start of weight loss, but this time I have a kick in the butt from Mrs Weight Watchers. I am required to weigh in online and track all my food and activities. So here goes!!

Happy Halloween!!

I hadn't written in awhile, so I wanted to wish you a Happy Halloween! Matt and I are throwing a little party to celebrate one of the best holidays of the year. We are excited cause we are going all out with our little costume party. Everything we did as kids, we are doing at the party!! S'mores, costumes, fog machines, music, candy etc etc. Should be fun!!

The Landlord

Yesterday was such a gorgeous day. It was a lazy Sunday morning and we didn't know what to do. So Matt decided we should go to the cemetary for an early Halloween chill. Morbid I know but we were really in search of Peter Mortenson. The orginal owner of house back in 1902. We anxiously drove around looking for section T234. We parked and started walking up and down the rows of the section he was in, then all the sudden Matt called over to me "Moretenson!! I found it!" I ran up to the headstone, an erie silence grew between me and Matt. It was almost like we were both in shock that this was really real. We had read so much about Peter and his wife Hannah. And there they were beneath our feet, all that was left of them was a couple names carved in a piece of granite.


We got to talking about how nobody has probably come to visit this stone in some time. When was the last time someone placed flowers on this grave? I took some seeds from a hollyhock that was growing on headstone nearby and planted them next to the stone. The chance of regrowth for someone that may or may not be forgotton.

It's amazing to think theres 70 years between 1938 (when Peter passed) and now. So much has probably changed or maybe nothing has changed at all. They lived in our house in 1929 during the great depression and Matt and I are living in a similar economic time in the same house. How many laughs and tears were shared in this house, kisses and hugs? They had a family in this house, they had grandbabies in this house. How much love could fill the walls of our little home.

It got me thinking, does Peter ever come back to check on his house? Like an unexpected landlord....

Just Some Fun

I liked Becky's idea of this, so I thought I would add it into my blog

10 Years Ago I:

*Was only 16 years old
*Just started to drive my '87 honda accord
*Had a crush on one of the football players at my highschool
*Was holding about a 3.8 gpa
*Wanted to be a lawyer

5 Things on today's to do list:

*I need to clean the house
*Need to blow out the sprinkler systems
*Relax and enjoy the weekend
*Work out
*Wow i can't think of another - this is going to be a good weekend

5 of my favorite foods:
*Chicken/Broccoli Alfredo
*Chicken strips with ranch
*Broccoli and cheese
*Cheesecake
*Pizza

5 Places I've Lived (I only have 3):

*Loveland, Co
*Canon City, Co
*Colorado Springs, CO

5 Jobs I've Had:

*Secretary - American Family Insur
*Cashier - Petsmart
*Customer Service - Qwest - (HORRIBLE!)
*Fraud Dept - Bank
*Customer Service - Springs Waste

Checked Off My Huge "TO DO LIST!"

Yesterday I met one my best friends, Adriane, up in Denver. She is going to be one of the bridesmaids in my wedding. So while we were up there we thought we would go check out bridesmaid dresses at David's Bridal. We had so much fun, we found a dress we both liked. And she looked great in it. You can see a picture of the dress below. It will also be this color. It's called "Lapis" it was beautiful!

After that we looked at a few wedding dresses for me, I found one that was $1100 but I knew my dad wouldn't go for that one! Hehe. But I am sure I will find a dress I can't live without soon. (I will not be posting pics of that when I find it though, it's going to be a surprise hehe!)

Needless to say it was good to catch up with Adriane. I hadn't seen her in awhile and it was nice to discuss wedding etc with someone and have them be so excited about everything. Also felt great to cross that off my huge to do list!

By Jolly, I've Got It!

So about 2 weeks ago, Matt and I went to Michaels and bought a bunch of flowers and some foam to make the bouquets for the bridesmaids. I had this vison in my head but when I started sticking flowers into the foam I relized how hard this all was going to be. So needless to say the night ended in tears and a piece of foam that was so used and abused it couldn't even hold flowers in it anymore.

I went again the other night and bought some more foam, flowers etc. And sat down with the bouquets and I made 3 bouquets that turned out absolutly beautiful I couldn't believe that I had made them. Here's a sneak peek!


They are not done in this picture, but this is the 3 bouquets. I still have to make mine but I am so happy that I made my own flowers for my wedding. The theme is fall colors, sunflowers etc.

Highway To The Danger Zone....

So today Matt and I went to the Colorado Springs Air Show. What an amazing adventure we had. I'd never been to an air show before. They had some stunt planes, gliders, and they had F-18 jets.



It was so amazing to see the jet fly by us and you could feel the heat from the engines, it was so loud!! Then he went around behind us and came around sideways over us. I felt like I was in the movie "Top Gun!" What an amazing time we had.

The Hamburgler!

So this morning on my way to work, I saw this little miniture pincher that lives down the street from me. He's always getting out cause he slips through the hole between the gate and the fence at his house. Anyways, so this morning he was trying to get back into the fence, but he couldn't make it. He was holding a roll of hamburger meat in his mouth and couldn't fit through. He must have found it in the trash while was out for his morning adventure. I almost died laughing. His little friend on the other side of the fence was like "C'mon Dude!!" That little hamburgler puppy was a good way to start the day.

Motivation, Where Have You Been?

So today it happened, I actually ran around the track 2 times!! 2 times!! My goal is to loose 50lbs before my wedding day. 50lbs ago is what I was when I met Matt. It's amazing how fast it sneaks up on you. But I was proud of myself today. I made Matt drive me down to the high school track and I did it. It's funny because everyday I lay on the couch watching TV after work and I think to myself that I need to get up and do something to loose weight. I expect the weight to come off just by eating good and not working out. You'd think my wedding would be motivation enough, it's only the biggest day of my life. Maybe today was day one of many more motivating days. I will keep you up to date on my progress.

Here Comes The Bride...

So I was driving home from work today, listening to Jewel. Her lyrics are so beautiful. It got me thinking about how I'm going to feel walking down the isle and seeing Matt at the end. I knew the day I met Matt that he would be the one I would spend my life with. I dont know why it took us 8 years to finally take this step in our life. So I tried to imagine my emotions, how I would feel when I am saying my vows and looking in Matt's eyes knowing everything would be ok. And I cried. I cried cause I knew Matt would be there to take care of me for the rest of my life. I cried cause I knew he was the one I was meant to be with. The person my soul was made for. It was a refreshing cry, the good kind.

It took my breathe away thinking of Matt, would he tear up, would he cry? Does he think about this "wedding" as much as I do? He's such a beautiful person, he's always looking to help someone, or be there. I know he's going to be a great father to our children, and grandchildren. Those days will come quickly and I will be wishing for days like today where I am anxious of the future. Wondering how it will all turn out..

The Aspens Are Changing

So this weekend was the best weekend to go view the aspens around Colorado. Matt and I always take this little dirt road that leads from Colorado Springs up to Cripple Creek (an old mining gambling town), and along the way the mountain sides are just covered in yellow, orange, green, red and gold aspens. The most beautiful thing you'd ever see in your life if you go on the right day. We were a little early, but needless to say we did have a very good time. We wanted to get some pictures of each other like we do every year. This year was a little more meaningful cause we knew at this time next year we would be married! I honeslty dont know why the word marriage kinda scares me or maybe it excites me, I mean in all reality nothing is going to change between me and Matt. We have lived together six years, we've laughed and cried together and we've been through just about anything a couple can go through. But last Thursday I had to go reserve the location for our wedding, my heart was skipping a beat, but in a way it made me so overwelmingly excited that I couldn't wait. I wanted to get married tomorrow. Maybe Matt and I are like the aspens, our life together is changing into something very beautiful! (Photo Taken By Matt 9/28/08)

So It Begins

Well I never thought I would be a "blogger" because I never have anything happen to me that anyone would really care to read about or reply to.

But as it turns out I am getting married in a year and the days will go by quickly. So I thought since it will be so chaotic and fun, I could post my fun with you! Other than that I probably have nothing exciting to write about, but we will see. Who knows, you may be very entertained.